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GiRLS JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN!

 This picture reminds me of a picture with Amanda and I! Hehe!

Currently Listening Take My Breath Away/Fly By Jessica Simpson see related

All that I want is
Stillness of heart
So I can start
To find my way
Out of the dark
& into your heart . . .  - Lenny Kravitz

So, here I am, sitting at home listening to music and thinking, as normal. . .  I have come to the conclusion on some things:

* Being conditional KILLS me!! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I feel like I am letting the rest of my sisters down and it's the worst feeling in the world to me.  But I know it's for the best right now.

* I can't wait for David to come up. He called me tonight, and we're talking about the stuff we're gonna do while he's here: Go to KI, skyline, reds game, shop etc. . .  I haven't seen him in so long, but then again, it's just going to be like old times with my best friend!

* I got invited to the LCA formal. That excited me. But I was sure to tell him just as friends. But I know he'll be respectful and understanding.

* I really miss the Spice Girls for some reason . . . I know random, but they just came on my IPod. 

* I officially OFFICIALLY need to be done with my past! All it does is cause me problems and tear my heart back open . . . perfect lyric right here:

" I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
and our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel" - Papa Roach "Scars"

--- all it ever does is haunt me, and I know that he's just going to keep wanting me back, and I can't give in to that. He hurt me too much . . . I am still hurt from it . . . Wow. . . tonight's like "perfect night of songs". --

" Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid " - Kelly Clarkson

Currently Listening Rascal Flatts By Rascal Flatts I'm Moving On see related

I'm Moving On . . .

Currently Listening Breakaway By Kelly Clarkson Beautiful Disaster see related

: - : Random Icons and Quotes : - :

there's so much left to learn
and absolutely nowhere left to hide

hearts dont sink;
no, they drown.

oh, instincts are misleading
you shouldnt think what youre feeling

Fifty percent of what people say
when they are joking, is true.

When you lose everything you want,
You find the one thing you need.

never regret something that once made you smile

.A crush is a single spark in your eye.
falling in love is when that spark catches fire.

the happiest people do not have it all--
they just make the best of what they got

T0 THE GUY, A GiRL iS A CHAPTER iN A B00K
T0 THE GiRL, THE GUY iS THE BOOK

Love; it`s like lightning. you get struck once & baby it kills

Be who you are and say what you feel,
because those who mind don't matter
and those who matter don't mind.

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.

We'll Walk Down The Beach,
Hand-In-Hand & Be The Couple
That Everyone Envies;
The Couple That Gets Through Every Fight;
The Couple That Loves Each Other
Through Every Obstacle;
The Couple That Proves To Everyone
That True Love CAN Last Forever <3

If laughing made you
lose weight...my friends
and I wouldn't weigh a pound
and i LOVE that about us

& i'm the type of girl
who would want his jacket
just because it smells like him

we all live like we have forever left…
getting too tangled up in everything
wasting useful moments on useless
drama. one day we'll wonder where
all the time went && we'll remember
what we wasted it on and how it was
a big mistake

every girl is beautiful
if they have the ability to believe in themselves

it`s not that i can`t live without you
it`s that i don`t even want to try

Always give a friend a safe place to cry & never a reason to.

Currently Listening Rascal Flatts By Rascal Flatts I'm movin' on see related

Home Sweet Home / Ahh Finals / I hate Gerry McNamara!! / Boys / EVERYTHING ELSE

Life right now is just at one of those times, you wish you could stop, and just know, everything is going to be OKAY!

I went to NYC last week and had a ball. It was a hella long road trip, but well worth it (except for the game). NYC is what I expected it to be and more -- all the lights, sounds, people -- I can imagine living there...kind of strange. But we partied a bit, had a lot of laughs, and shopped! Tons of fun, but it's good to be home sweet home. I just wish we were going somewhere for NCAA, but of course not cause we get F'd over!! UgH!  So many words can and have been said about it.

Finals -- Oh my gah, they're driving me crazy. I dont know how I am going to pass. I have a test at 12pm tomo then my final from 1:30-3:30 then meet my advisor at 3:30 who I fear with my life is going to tell me the death news of all time : : sigh : : (think positive thoughts! I know!)

Gerry McNamara -- I wish he'd get hit by a bus, choke on a chicken bone, or something horrible cause he screwed us over. He should have packed a bag while he was shooting that 3 point shot against us, that bastard!

Boys -- I dunno what to say about boys -- just  . . . taking things slow. I have never been treated the way I am now, except for a LONG LONG time ago, but thats in the past.

Stress, Work, School, Money, -- you name it, its going wrong. I hate my job (kind of) ; School sucks ; and I am broke as a skunk-a-sorrus and it sucks. But I am going out with my girls tonight, so that should cheer me up a bunch -- Going to Cheetah for Sarah's 20th birthday!! and this weekend is hella huge 4peoples birthday bash on St. Pattys Day!!  BRING ON SPRING BREAK!!!

I got to thinking about somethings from the past tonight, and it made me want to cry. All I really want to know is, if someone really tells you that they care, and they "really wanted to be with you..." why did they stop talking to you all together after leading you on for 4 months!?!?! SERIOUSLY! I know I shouldn't think about it, but it bugs me. It bugs me he lives 4 mins from my house, it bugs me that he never gave me a real explanation, it bugs me that he gave me excuses, and it bugs me most of all that he lied . . .   it just sucks, cause there are these days where I drive by the baseball fields and want to go and see if hes okay, and other times just want to pick up my phone and call him --- but if he really wanted to talk to me, he'd do the same thing, and he hasn't. You know what . . . ? I dont even know why I am talking about this . . . I have a great guy, treating me like a princess, bending backwards for me, gives me sooo much -- I couldn't ask for more . . . : : sigh : :

I leave with a song . . . a song that sums up what I should do right now, and I am going to have to do it . . . even if it is something I regret . . .

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived that I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on